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Isn't life funny....

Tue Feb 27, 2007, 4:57 PM
  • Mood: Sorrow
  • Listening to: My Family fighting
  • Reading: Good Omens
  • Watching: Time slipping away
  • Playing: Mortal Kombat: Armagedon
  • Eating: nothing
  • Drinking: Mountain Dew
Well... I've been working hard on planning the wedding... Jim is working hard just to help me with chores lately (3rd shift sucks), my mother is working hard to not devorce my father (despite how much she wants to), my brothers are working hard to not kill eachother living in the same small room together at 15 and 16... and right now... right now i'm working hard to not crush my head against the concreat or drown myself in my own blood. I get mad, because my fiancee whom i love more than anything in the world is upset... can't hold it in, and vent... next thing i know, i'm getting barbarded with the "how dare you"s... as if any of them even know me... i don't think i'm superior, quite the opposite, i think i'm unworthy of the wonderfull man i have... and of life in general. I have almost no friends because the ones i did have live out of state, and the one's in state are afraid of my violent tempered father. I can't eat because every time i do i end up throwing up from the sheer stress of this house... i can't sleep because i keep having nightmares about the night Morgan died (for those of you that may not know, Morgan is the name we chose for the baby that miscarried... i should be a Mommy of a 2 and a half month old baby right now) and right now that fact has sent any romantic life Jim and i had living in my parents house spiralling down the pipes. I have a couple of supportive friends online, but they are having some of their own problems and i can't call them right now... i mean, they would of course want to help (you know who you are, and i thank you) but i can't bring myself to burden them again. I can't talk to my mother because she is on the verge of a nervous brake down, i can't go for a drive because we don't even have enough gas money for the week, let alone money to pay our rent and bills... and i can't even hear a friends voice because i know that i'd brake down and loose it. Right now i just wish for one night where someone would come and take me out of this place... where i chould just be taken away for a little while... be anywhere but here...

at any rate, i hope this gives people a bit more of an insite into my not so sunny world... so many some of you out there so quick to shake a finger in my face at my behaviour at least understand it a bit better... from not on i'll not leave a comment unless it is only possitive... and i'll thank everyone else out there to do the same.


~~KyAnna~~

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Devious Info

  • Current Residence: MN
  • Interests: anime, books, ddr, sewing, drawing, working with clay, anything artsy!
  • Favourite movie: Long Kiss Goodnight
  • Favourite band or musician: Gretchin Wilson
  • Favourite genre of music: Country... yeah yeah i know...
  • Favourite artist: Warren McKenzie
  • Favourite poet or writer: Satta-sama
  • Favourite photographer: Satta-sama
  • Operating System: Windows Media Center Edition
  • Wallpaper of choice: James (fiancee) and Ryan (a dear friend that has passed)
  • Favourite game: D-n-D
  • Favourite gaming platform: PS2
  • Favourite cartoon character: Master Splinter
  • Personal Quote: Life's too short, Live, Laugh, and Love before things go bad, you'll regrett it if you don't.
  • Tools of the Trade: Paper and Pencil

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:iconmelancholydreamer:
hey! just stopping by and saying hi! ^^

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"We belong to the frozen world, when the ice, begins to thaw, becomes the sea, oh oh, you will see, how beautiful we, can be." - Emilie Simon
:iconbluekittypierce:
*glomp* hiya! long time no chat!

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... Why be bound to Earthly things, when I can skate on Saturns rings...?
:iconzuchax:
Thanks for the favorite. ///_^

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I promise you I'm working on stuff. Just what stuff, I haven't gotten to do. Work tends to pile up and smother me. I'm also trying to beat Pokemon Emerald, so yeah..
:iconmelancholydreamer:
thanks so much for your kindness and care, I thank you for it, means alot to me :glomp:

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"We belong to the frozen world, when the ice, begins to thaw, becomes the sea, oh oh, you will see, how beautiful we, can be." - Emilie Simon
:iconzuchax:
Thanks for the favorite!

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I promise you I'm working on stuff. Just what stuff, I haven't gotten to do. Work tends to pile up and smother me. I'm also trying to beat Pokemon Emerald, so yeah..
:icondeliriousinmymind:
thanks for the watch and the favs

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Alexandra
:D
:iconzuchax:
Thanks for the favorite on that bit of KH2 fanart I did.

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I promise you I'm working on stuff. Just what stuff, I haven't gotten to do. Work tends to pile up and smother me. I'm also trying to beat Pokemon Emerald, so yeah..
:iconneko-zee:
thanks for the fave! *glomps* mew!

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The name\'s Koopa Cat, or Zee.
:silentkitty:

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I\'m the kind of person that thinks everyone is good. .....with ketchup...
:iconneko-zee:
Thanks for the watch. =^-^=

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The name\'s Koopa Cat, or Zee.
:silentkitty:

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I\'m the kind of person that thinks everyone is good. .....with ketchup...

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